Wednesday, February 14, 2007
4:23 a.m
now I've seen everything..
most guys..tsk..TERRIBLE..
wad did u tell me just last week? WAHHHHHHHH..HAHA! I'm glad I didn't fall for ur bullshit another time..holy shit.."I want that girl back so much" LOLOLOLOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL WADEVURRRRRRRR..glad tat I was so cynical n skeptical about everything..turns out..HEY I'M RIGHT!
I guess there's no such thing as being too careful..so ppl..pls open ur eyes n ur ears..becos there are BASTARDS out there who say wad they dun mean..
my god..n u were talking to her right IN FRONT OF ME -_-" I even saw it..I MUST HAVE BEEN BLIND. STUPID. RETARDED. becos I. ONLY. JUST. REALISED. IT. at THREE FREAKING A.M. I just made the connection..funny how some thinking makes u realise stuff..MY GOD. U GODDAMN LIAR. HYPOCRITE. OMG. WHY AM I SO MYOPIC. NAIVE. I SAW IT. OMG I SAW IT. N IT NEVER OCCURRED TO ME. FUCK U MAN. I TRUSTED U. I BELIEVED U. I GAVE U TOO MUCH CREDIT. FUCK U. FUCK EVERYTHING. FUCK UR DAMNED PRINCIPLES WHICH U DUN EVEN ABIDE BY. FUCK ALL THAT TALK. I EVEN HAPPILY PASSED THE FREAKING THING TO YOU. I SHOULD HAVE THROW THE BLOODY THING ON THE FLOOR. SHOULD HAVE CREATED A DAMNED SCENE. SHOULD HAVE FUCKING ASKED U WAD U WERE DOING. I SHOULD NEVER HAVE ENTERTAINED U. SO MANY SHOULD HAVES.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I WISH I NEVER MET U. WOULD HAVE SAVED MYSELF SO MUCH HEARTACHE. SHOULD NEVER HAVE. NEVER EVER NEVER EVER URGHHHHH..SAM U SHOULD HAVE HIT ME OVER THE HEAD WITH THE LARGEST FRYING PAN U CAN LAY UR HANDS ON@@! BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE. N I EVEN THOUGHT U WERE GONNA BE MY LAST. I SHUDDER AT THE THOUGHT NOW. ZZZZZZZZZ. FUCKING HELL. SHIT U LAR. I TAKE BACK EVERYYYYYYYY SINGLE NICE THING THAT I SAID ABOUT U TO OTHERS. LIAR. WHERE THE FUCK DID U LEAVE UR CONSCIENCE. BLOODY ROT IN HELL.
YOU. OWE. ME. A. GOD. DANG. SLAP. n much more. DAMNED DOG. FUCKING LIAR LEI!
u're prolly rocking ur life right now so I guess u won't care. continue la. go ahead la. do wadever the fuck u want since u always tink u're RIGHT but anyway. I hope u know whut u're doing.
ACTIONS REALLY SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. YOU. WORDS N ACTIONS DUN MATCH. FUCK THAT.
actually it's not my problem u can go to hell for all I care..tis entry is just because....I AM PISSED OFF WITH MYSELF.
pls dun comment on my use of vulgarities. I am really TRAUMATISED by my stupidity.
SHIT MAN. my bf is right. ALTHOUGH PPL ARE LYING TO U RIGHT THRU THEIR TEETH N U OBVIOUSLY KNOW IT. SOME IDIOTS LIKE ME FORCE THEMSELVES TO BELIEVE OTHERWISE.
FUCK. SAM U WERE RIGHT. OMG U HAD THE RIGHT IDEA ALL ALONG. NO WONDER. STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID ME. )#*$^)#*$)^*#$
WHY AM I SO FUCKING DUMB??????????? WHY DO PPL ALWAYS LIE TO ME?????
is it becos..I choose to believe the best in ppl?
is it becos..I trust implicitly?
is it becos..I'm just too naive for my own good it is easy to lie to me????????
or I just have JACKASS written on my forehead?
SO HOW? ENJOY HURTING ME? NICE NOT? FUN RIGHT?
FREAKINGGGGGGGGGGGG..HELL..
please ok..to ppl reading tis..DON'T LIE TO ME. n stop treating me like a fool.
becos I get EXTREMELY HURT
n also becos u know why?
someday..someone's gonna pay u back double
ok wadever. that was the last of the last. ENLIGHTENED.
I will not believe ppl so easily anymore.
I will not listen to bullshit.
I will shut myself in a box n live in my own imaginary world.
n so if u find that I take very long to open up to ppl n I dun really express myself..now u know why..cos I've been lied to once..twice..thrice..UMPTEEN TIMES.
DAMN SICK OF IT. I AM AFRAID.
I WILL NOT TRUST. NO TRUST = NO MORE HURT. SWEET.
I should have been born without knowing how to feel.
I shall be smarter. Lesson learnt. Dun trust guys becos they will say ANYTHING just to get u. Damn.
One day I will look back at this and laugh.
[edited]
2:18 a.m.
moving on to other matters..
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY everyone! me love u all =D
actually..I believe tat if tat if u're nice to ur partner..everything is vday la..dun really need a day where u do special stuff..I mean..imagine if u treat ur other half like shit normally n just put in extra effort for vday..wad's the point!
=PpP bf I love u! =X I shy la!
oh exam today was groovy..I AM GOING TO PASS MEDLAW! woot..I happily threw my notes away after the paper..but MASINA..omg nightmare..how to remember all ar??
>.<>"Wi-Fi"
when pronounced the Wanjune way..becomes.."Wee-Fee"..everybody on the count of 3 now..
3..2..1..
*evil laughter