Monday, February 19, 2007
10 a.m.
just had a shouting match with my parents. I feel so exhausted now. cried until my eyes look like they belong to goldfish.
my parents are fucked up. I didn't want to go out becos I'm not feeling well. I told them my skin hurts like crap n I barely slept last night becos it was really painful. it really felt like it was on fire la.
their response?
mom: come on la. yesterday nv hear u say pain. today suddenly lidat. I dun care. Wake up NOW n go out. WHERE? SHOW ME. WHERE WHERE?
dad: serves u right.
.....................wtf? I was in pain n tat's wad they said. I got really upset n started screaming abt how biased they were becos the moment my bro says he's unwell they insist he see a doctor.
mom: next time u need anything dun ask me. dun ask me for money.
dad: u're have been nothing but trouble since u were a kid. ur bro is so much better.
ok fine so I'm nothing but a waste of money n resources to both of them.
I'm not ok. really not ok. dun comfort me by saying tat they actually care for me becos I know they really DON'T. maybe if I died they will share a tear or two. like the death of a hamster or smth. but YA. I mean nothing to them at all.
they are forever complaining about me. I wanted to pack my bags n just leave just now. but. GO WHERE? gramps isn't in Singapore. n it's CNY. I can't appear at my frens house looking all glum.
I told my dad tat I HATE HIM. fucked up bastard.
year end last year when I fainted at tampines mrt. my mom was at home watching tv. when I called n told her.
mom: serves u right.
........................................she didn't even come n pick me up. didn't ask how I was.
dad: I'm outside la. too far away.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. in the end a fren had to come n pick me up n bring me to the doctor.
WTF. I FAINTED. even STRANGERS rushed to help me. but not my own freaking parents. I wonder if I'm really their kid. I never felt more hurt in my entire life.
n today they only shut their mouths abt how I'm a piece of worthless nothing when my brother started screaming at them n told them to shut the fuck up. n how biased they are becos they make a BIG DEAL when he just lets out a tiny cough but do nothing when I'm really damn ill.
FUCKTARDS.
so now I'm at home with my bro becos he refused to go out with those 2 assholes.
thank god for small miracles.
I hate cny. is it going to be over soon?
I hate my parents. I am going to leave them in drains in their old age.
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